after a great and lengthy pity party. I am utterly resolved. Anyone he knows me *knows* I hate being here. Further, if you know me you *know* that my heart is in Chicago.
And that's where I'm going.
If there was any doubt in my mind. Its absolutely gone.
Anything that makes me *this* unhappy is not worth sticking around for.
and I'm tired of crazy christians telling me I'm called here.
I'm not staying.
If you like it so much, you can stay.